its just taking that first step eh lol feel like ive wasted 2 years of my life. maddy will love traveling. she is obsessed with planes so that wud keep her quiet for the 24 hour flight :O thats the worse. i just think its down to being so comfortable in this place, this situation it becomes the norm dont it? it wud feel strange being on my own. Even tho i love it when he is out and dont come back. i love being on my own
