[stacy_elise]

wel, where do i start, ive had such a bad few weeks and my depression has come bk wiv a vengance. i feel so down and upset at the mo and jus dont know where 2 turn, my counsellor is quite worried about me she has brought nxt thursdays appointment forward to monday jus to see how i am.
it all atarted when so much in my life went on, i went on holiday to blue dolphin caravan park last week, with two friends and there 3 year old kids, thought id love it, woah was i wrong my daughter had a fab time but i was constantly left out by my so called friends n it made me feel like rubbish.
then wen i got bk it jus got worse my o/h and me had a huge falling out over his ex wife agen, then he decided he wanted to have all 4 of his kids in our 3 bed house, where they totally cant fit, n wen im feelin as down as i am i just cant cope, they are unruly kids i cant shout at thm coz they go straight bk 2 there mum n causes arguements, my o/h never shouts at them but i allow him 2 discipline my daughter wen needed, like they have a different set of rules. so all this didnt help to how i was feeling then my daughter began 2 push her luck coz she can see how on edge i am, i try to hide this from her, i dont want her seeing how i am, but its jus so hard at the moment.

sorry its long but rant over ( big sigh )
jus hard 4 me i dont have the support network i need by boyfriend or family dont understand all i have is my amazing counsellor but only see her once a week.