on an all time low

[clare bear]

soz about this ladies but i just need someone to talk to. i feel so stupid as on mon i tried to end my life. ant and i had a row about his mum.well as things went on i told ant not to come back home as i hated him.The thing is i can not stand his mum,i neva have and neva will. i talk to her for the sake of ant. she only wants him when theres no one else.the only time she asks him to do things for her is when our sis in law cant. well things came to a head on mon i was so low i decided to give them all a break and end it all. then none of them would have to talk to me then.so i took to the drink.i hadnt eaten i took my insulin(which was so stupid)and drank as much as i could.i went to bed feeling so ill. the thing is i just want to put my point across that his mum is going to end our marriage if she keeps on.ive told ant all this but he just says ignore it,but its so hard when i have to make her welcome in my home. has anyone got any ideas. i love antto bits but i just cant put up with his family. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

[c.a.cullum]

sorry ur feeling so down hun!! i think u shud have another serious chat wit ant and tell him.. he doesnt have to but u have to get a break from his family!! he needs to understand that it may not b 4eva just til u can get urself up and running again.. and they r making that impossible fpor u!! just emphasise on the fact that just coz u need time away from them doesnt mean he cant go c them!!! :smile: hope u sort somethin soon hun!!

[clare bear]

cheers chic. ive decided that when ant goes to see his family ill stay at home. ants not to pleased at the mo as his mum slagged me off to his face infront of the rest of the family. but at the end of the day ant can go see them when he wants ill neva stop him, i just wont go with him.

[c.a.cullum]

i think thats for the best hun!! at the end of the day... they rnt ur family!!! im sure things wil sort itself out and hopefully sooner rather than later!!

[becky]

thats orfull hun, sorry to hear your feeling so down. dont take ur own life tho hun, why end ur life coss of some1 ur alot better then them, keep strong and think for the best!! dont end ur life coss u dont like someone. coss ur the one who will be gone, and they will live on!! you need to keep strong!! and no more injecting insulient when u dont need to!!!

xx

[clare bear]

thanks chic. i know i was so stupid but it just felt right at the time. i was sat in the house on my own.i didnt even know if ant was coming back, so it just seemed so right at the time. but ive been a good girl since. iv decided why should i make myself ill ova them they wont miss me when im gone, they wont stand by ant when hes in pain,and lonley. im gonna hold my head up high and show them im so much better than they are. if i dont fit then so be it. who cares hey .

[emerald-babe31]

Aww hun sorry to hear all tht

I left u a private msg earlier if u want to talk to me hun

chin up hun we all loves ya xoxoxox