Bad Day

[clare bear]

soz about this ladies but i just need a moan. today has been the worst day ive had in ages. im so low.this morning i was so sick, i wondered what was going on.I picked myself up and decided we would go and take Ants dads flowers, then go in to town.We decided to go to town first, when i got there i just was not interested at all. i couldnt wait to get back to the car. Then we went to see Ants dad and to take him his flowers,that went ok, but i went to see Ants nan ( whos in the same church yard as jim) and i noticed someone had taken her welcome plaque off that i had put on there years ago. Theres no need for it to be moved this is the second time now, so that upset me. then we went to sainsburys to get something for tea. When i got back to the car i just sat and cried. I just feel like everyone is doing things to me so i will react and give them hell.Ants family know i hate things being messed with and moved for no reason.I know they want me to bite back, but im bigger and better than them so i aint gonna.I dunno today its just felt like everything ive done or said is totally wrong.I know it may sound silly but i feel as if i was put on this earth just to be hurt all the time. Oh well my moan over, just one of them days i suppose. like they say tommorrow is another day.

[stacy_elise]

awwww hun i often feel like this, i feel people are constantly out 2 get at me, no1 else jus me, it does get u down. but i ave have learnt 2 pick myself up n get on wiv it, im seein a counsellor to help me deal with things like this and she really does help. but everything always ends up being ok.

[clare bear]

yea im gonna see my doc about getting something done about it. some days im so low i wanna end it all. i often sit and think well they dont want me hear so ill just go and leave um all. I know i shouldn't take any notice but there is only so much a person can take, and i feel ive took enough. but hey we i will have to see what happens. i just wish i could pick myself up this time like i usually do, but i feel its gone to far this time.i dont think i can get any lower.

[emerald-babe31]

aww sis I am so sorry u are feeling like this again... hugs from me and the girls and I hope u get sorted soon ******************xx

[clare bear]

well i said in my last post tomorrow is another day but hey its the same as yesterday. im really gonna go and see my doc as i cant go on like this. i dont think i can get any lower.

[stacy_elise]

i felt exactly like that, but my counsellor is amazing. its sum1 i can talk to and she doesnt judge me she listens to everythin i have to say. some days i jus feel like theres no point in life and i got to the point where i no longer wanted to be here and people wouldnt even notice if i wasnt, but thats when i got the help. i still believe people dont care but i hvent got a very close family so i ave learnt to rely on people that mean something to me it helps, hope u r feeling better soon hun, coz i know it is the hardest feeling in the world to deal with. x(rose)

[pinky29]

hey clare i'm glad your going to the dr to get things sorted & can i be frank with you as we have known each for a long time now & you know i will always say what i feel & not what you want to hear as i think thats what friends are for!
claire without sounding rude i think you really need to seek help as coming from an outsider you seem to have everything wrong with you when you shouldn't you should be full of life at your age. i think you & ant need to sit down & speak about his family & yourselves as nothing seems to be getting resolved.
s**t happens in life but you are strong enough to pick yourself up & start over again but you don't seem to have much support around you to do this & you need it one way or another.
like i said sorry if i offend you but you know me by now to speak my mind.
make sure you go to the dr & get things sorted.x

[melanie]

hi clare,im really sorry about how ur feeling hun,i went through a similar experiance a couple of years ago too,i was feeling so down about crap that had happened in my life and felt there was no point anymore.i felt i had nowhere to turn and even started to take it out on my boyfreind and every one around me!i felt alone,people were saying to me to go see a docter and counciller but i didnt like the idea of the stigma that was attached to anti deppressants and stuff,but i went in the end anyway. first i spoke to a counciller and got my feelings out there and realised that these bad things were there but also i did have ggood things in my life to and i learned how to embrace these good things and this did help a bit. then i went do my doc who prescribed anti deppressants to me,i didnt really want to take them but i did anyway and eventually i started to see a bit clearer and things started to get better from there.so i hope this helps u in some way or another,and i would advise u to see ur doc asap before it spirals out of control,take it easy hunand let us know how u are...***

[clare bear]

thanks ladies. well ant and i had a little chat about his family and we dont give a damn what they do or think any more. They can all please themselves. I decided not to go to the docs as i dont need anti ds, i can pick myself up.As for me getting down due to my health well thats not my fault, and yea having hirsutisum is hard to live with and its not just a few tablets as a quick fix. My health pulls me down more than anything but hey i didnt give myself pcos,hirsutisum,ibs or diabeties. so im sorry if i get on anyones nerves when i post that im not feeling to well but thats how it is.

[BettyBoo]

oh clare im so sorry ur going thru this, as an outsider i dont really know u as well as other members but didnt want to ignore this n not post!

huge hugs hope u feel happy soon xx