just want to share this

clare bear · #1 10-11-2007, 10:31 PM

ladies i hope you dont mind but i just need to share this with you so i can get it off my chest. last night i sat watching the bravery awards,ant was watching tv upstairs. i dont know why but i felt so alone and it depressed me.i found myself sat talking to my nan. nan has been dead for 7 years in feb, i really miss her.ive never sat talking to nan before,it made me feel really safe and warm. weird i know. when ant came down i told him ,he didnt say much. i dont know what i expected to get by talking to nan, but it made me feel better. i suffer from depression loads, nan never ever knew this,if she did she would have tried to help me out with it. does anyone else ever talk to passed loved ones

or am i just cracking up,coz i honestly feel like i am. hope i aint bored you all. soz if i have i just needed to tell someone how i felt.

ThatGirl · #2 10-11-2007, 10:36 PM

aww that's ok hunny, i don't have loved ones that have passed away that i know, one of my nan's killed herself 10 years before i was born and the other one when i was six so i can't but myself in that persition sorry hun, i don't think your going mad, i talk to my foster carers old cat who died, i feel her foot prints when i lay in bed and i feel her lay down, (ok you can all think im crazy) but talking to her helps

, if it makes you happy then don't listen to what others think
i used to suffer from depression alot, and used to selfharm....

hope you feel better soon hunny
im here to talk if you want x

(did i talk aload of babble there?)

clare bear · #3 10-11-2007, 10:44 PM

it wasnt babble chic it all made sense. its just ive never talked to nan before.i usually write her a letter and put it away,that helps me too. i suppose i just needed someone to talk to and i knew if nan was here she would sit and listen to me. its so hard not being able to talk to anyone when im down. i used to be able to talk to ant but hes not to good at the mo with depression, and i dont want to worry him,as hes trying his hardest to beat it himself.im the type of person that bottles it all up and then it gets to much for me and i have to let it all out, but i find it hard. i got my self out of depression once and i know i can do it again but this time its a bit harder.

ThatGirl · #4 10-11-2007, 11:02 PM

i know how you feel, i don't talk to people about how i feel... my brothers going back to prison (when the police catch him) and he was telling me like it wasn't bothering me but all i can do is fake a smile and pretend it doesnt!
have you tried writing about how you feel?
i've wrote over 200 poems and still have most of them in a folder, i find that an easy way, to get out how i'm feeling, maybe you could try it?

clare bear · #5 10-12-2007, 10:47 AM

good idea chic. ill have to give that a go. like i said i usually write my nan a letter. but ill try doing a poem next time.

kerrib · #6 10-15-2007, 04:14 PM

when im feeling low i find writing it all down in a letter a good way of getting it all out. im not that good at talking to people about how i feel as there was so much going on in my house when i was younger i felt like they didnt need my prob as well.
but writing it all down does help. hope you feel better soon

CoNFuSeD24 · #7 10-20-2007, 01:37 PM

Awww hun huggggggggggs. I feel alone sometimes and when I do I talk to myself around the house or my cat.

clare bear · #8 10-20-2007, 07:13 PM

its stupid really as you dont get the answer to the problem.but it just makes me feel that they are still here with me.i know not many ppl do but i dont cope with death at all.it knocks me back so much,even if i wasnt really close to the person it really kicks me hard.

becky · #9 10-20-2007, 08:26 PM

ohh clare hun, im sorry you felt that way!! my nan dies when i was about 11, and i dont talk to her , and shes the only close member of my family i have had die. when i go down to my mother in laws grave, i say hello to her. and when im on my own i tend to say a few words.

i know hubby talks to her! but as u know i beleive in spirits and ghosts, and i beleive the dead can hear and see us! theres alot of info on my old ghosts site, (worldofghosts) im sure the new owner still has it the same as it was, you should have a read hun.

Im always at the end of a txt if you need someone!! xx

clare bear · #10 10-20-2007, 09:08 PM

yea i look in world of ghosts quite a lot,its quite helpfull. i do believe in the dead can hear and see us,but i just felt so silly talking to my nan.at the end of the day i wanted an answer,but i knew i wouldnt get one.i talk to nan and grandad quite a lot just latly,theres not a day that goes by when i dont think of them,i miss them both so much. at the mo im going through a rough patch with my mum and sister,i just wish nan was here to give me some advice. but hey we cant hold on to loved ones forever.