need to talk.................

[clare bear]

as u all know i have a friend who is very ill. i saw her yesterday and was so shocked how ill she looked. well today her cousin phoned me and said that she needed to talk to me, carol(my ill friend) had told her cousin a few things that she wanted me to know, but doesnt want to tell me herself. i have a real bad feeling. yesterday carol asked if i will go to her mums grave with her, ive neva been before, it has really scared me. i told her cousin tonight and she said yea i know carol wants you to know where it is as she knows that when its her time you will look after her. its upset me so much as i know she is telling me her time is soon up.

[pinkydinkydo]

ah clare visting graves is so hard i should know its not the going it's always the leaving that is the hardest! all i can say girl is keep strong for your friend she obviously feels safe around you & close enough to share this with you so instead of feeling sad about it you should try to take comfort in the fact that she we always want you around even when it's her time to go.... i know it is hard but you have to put your feelings aside for your friend i had to when my brother died & it was the hardest thing i ever had to do or come face to face with in my life..take care sweet

[clare bear]

cheers hun. its just so hard as we lost contact for 24 years then we met up at a funeral. i just feel ive just got to know her again and now shes gonna leave.

[pinkydinkydo]

i know its hard but i'm a true believer that when its your time to go it doesn't matter what curumstance its your time to go . god knows if i didn't feel this way i would have never got threw my brothers death. i never got to say goodbye to my brother & i still see his face a couple of days before he died looking me straight in the eye saying goodbye so try to take comfort in knowing you will be able to say good bye take lots of piccies even if she doesn't look good i wish i had took one of ben & my bro together also i wrote down how i felt everytime i felt a wind of emotion coming over me. when my brother died & i saw him in the chapel of rest & i wrote a letter to him which was buried with him saying how i felt some of it very angry & some funny. hope this helps hun

[clare bear]

im gonna try and get it in to my head that when its her time to go it will be for the best, as she wont have to suffer anymore. cheers hun. i just dont cope very well but its helped talking to u. ive put a pic of me and carol in the pics post.i might she her again this weekend if shes able to come over to her cousins. thanks again chick lol***xx

[rileysmam]

awww clare hun im sorry about ur friend it must be hard, like pink said though b there for her and just think when he time does come she wont be in pain anymore and she always be with you, try to make the most of the time she has left to enjoy with her arrange to do something with her if you can chin up chick xx