~♥My first boyfriend♥~

[Mckenziesmum]

I lost my first boyfriend when i was 15. because he hated his dad you see so he'd rather kill himself than be around him....his mum phoned me, she told me that he was in hospital in Intensive care because he'd taken a drug overdose...So i didn't go to school hardly and spend all day by his bedside when i went to see him, i did feel sort of hopeless and i met mckenzies dad when i was there too...Because the two of them we're like close mates so he hardly went to school either and we both sat there and talked about how happy he seemed when he wasn't with me and all that.

Then i think it was...not even a week before his mum phoned my house and i answered and she was in floods of tears....She said he'd died, i couldn't believe my ears really...

Yeah...So he died..2 years ago..And i'm still not really much over how he left...Still hurts to this day but i don't like to show it

OMG that's terrible! I am so sorry you had to cope with such a massive loss at such a young age! ***

[pinkydinkydo]

oh hun thats sad!! i know how your feeling hun ny brother hung himself 2 years ago on valentines day its a horrid thing to go through but i will tell you this it does get easier & having children really does help the process!!! chin up sweet onwards & upwards!!!

[rileysmam]

im sorry to hear about that chick it really sad

[Mckenziesmum]

Thanks everyone...That really means alot coming from you guys even though your over the internet...To be honest everytime i think of it i look at Mckenzie and it takes my mind off things alittle bit...

But i do usually take McKenzie to see his gravestone...But then i end up crying and then having to go...But at least it gets easier as we get older.

[pinkydinkydo]

benjamin was only 4 mths when my brother died & i don't really take him to his grave yet but i will when he's old enough to understand but it does sadden me that he will never remember who his uncle was. but thats life & everything happens for a reason!!!

[clare bear]

i know its a long time ago now but in 1980 i lost a boyfriend(paul) he was killed instantly by a car. i was fetched out of my class by the headmaster, on the way to the office i saw pauls bro cryin. when i was told i was so shocked,it hit me quite bad. to this day i hate going ova the bridge that he was killed on.yea ive got over it and got on with my life. but i know wot u must be going through hun. time is a healer.

[Caseymum2b]

Awwww, i'm so sorry to hear about that...Must be devastationg loosing someone as close as that