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[stacy_elise]

wel, where do i start, ive had such a bad few weeks and my depression has come bk wiv a vengance. i feel so down and upset at the mo and jus dont know where 2 turn, my counsellor is quite worried about me she has brought nxt thursdays appointment forward to monday jus to see how i am.
it all atarted when so much in my life went on, i went on holiday to blue dolphin caravan park last week, with two friends and there 3 year old kids, thought id love it, woah was i wrong my daughter had a fab time but i was constantly left out by my so called friends n it made me feel like rubbish.
then wen i got bk it jus got worse my o/h and me had a huge falling out over his ex wife agen, then he decided he wanted to have all 4 of his kids in our 3 bed house, where they totally cant fit, n wen im feelin as down as i am i just cant cope, they are unruly kids i cant shout at thm coz they go straight bk 2 there mum n causes arguements, my o/h never shouts at them but i allow him 2 discipline my daughter wen needed, like they have a different set of rules. so all this didnt help to how i was feeling then my daughter began 2 push her luck coz she can see how on edge i am, i try to hide this from her, i dont want her seeing how i am, but its jus so hard at the moment.

sorry its long but rant over ( big sigh )
jus hard 4 me i dont have the support network i need by boyfriend or family dont understand all i have is my amazing counsellor but only see her once a week.

[Lynne]

Aww hun sounds like a very hard couple of weeks - no wonder your feeling down!! Is there any chance of you going to see your councellor more than once a week if she is really good? It might just take a bit of weight of your shoulders. You know we are all always here if you need any help. Feel free to PM me at any time if you want xx

[happyhappylady]

Oh heck hon .... really, really think you should see your doc and go on some anti-depressants, I suffer from depression too and they are a life saver. Also do you have a local Sure Start or befriending group? they can offer you support too. it sounds like an incredibly stressful situation and if you don't see your doctor you could end up ill. big hugs hon xx

[emmal20]

well cos im honest his exwifes a bitch and the children are running rings around u cos they know dey can have wot they want ,talk to ur partner nicely to put rules down n if ur friends have a prob n dont speak to u then they r shit friends gt to toddler groups or local youth club and find btr frends im saying this to put u on the straight path. oh yer if yur exwifes children dont get disiplin then wen they are older and be horrible to her then u can say told ya so. im soz about depression, anti deppressants are realy gud but it wont stop these things from happening

[emmal20]

cum to think of it if ur on edge then maybe if u spoke in anger wots on ur mind to the ex then maybe she can swallow

[stacy_elise]

thanks ladies, this weekend has been easier, my boyfriend works away and i think i get lonely at times durin the week, even more so when my so called friends are idiots. so helps at weekends, the real test will be this week when im alone, think i mite try joining some sort of group, jus always put me off coz im from a rough area and those sort of groups sometimes attract the chavvy young mums, but i could well be proven wrong.
as 4 the ex wife i do sometimes jus lose it can only deal wiv so much, i was out last nite and gave my so called friends a piece of my mind n i think i shocked them. im more upfront after a drink, im normally quite shy, so get walked all over.
once agen thankyou. x

[emmal20]

yur welcome we always hear for u
we shud meet up n av a chat or summink