antenatal depression

[Charlie_x]

I just wanted any of you mums to be out there that are feeling down in the dumps and think they have antenatal depression that i'm here if you wanted to talk.

i went through it twice in my pregnancy so far, and this is my first baby and i was trying for it as well! The first time i think it was more doubts and nerves and wondering if i had made a mistake and the second time was when i was told i having a boy i hated the fact that it was a boy and not a girl and i don't think it helped that everyone else was so happy and glad that it was a boy but both times i told my partner and hes never hated me once for it even when i got to the stage of saying i wanted an abortion in the start even tho he was upset that he was hearing this he stuck by me and in a way made me better.

& now when i think about it i feel guilty for thinking the stuff i did but if i didn't have the kind of relationship i have with my man i cant help but wonder if things would still be the same and now i'm so happy and cant till i hold my little boy and i always smile to myself when i can feel him kicking inside of me and im so proud of a baby thats not even here yet, i just want to see my children grow up and see them happy and i just want you all to know if any of you have felt like i've felt dont bottle it up talk to someone you trust, its not un-common to feel how i felt and some people get it worse, im here if any of you want a chat!


and now more than anything things are finaly looking up im moving into a big 3 bedroom house with a garden and a bath! (we only have a shower at the mo lol) and a proper kitchen, its a big step up from my one bedroom grubby flat i suppose that didnt help things cause we was constently looking over our shoulders and the fire alarams always going off for no reason!


Thats my story!

[CoNFuSeD24]

Aww hun. *huggs* Didnt relise ya felt that way and hope you feel better you have gotten it out in the open and off ya chest.

I'm not sure if I have felt Antenatal Depression but a few times I have gotten quite down and had a good old cry and talk to Lee and once Iv had my cry and talk I feel tons better. Its been just little things like when we had the damp coruse done and the house was a shit... was worried the house wasnt going to be ready for the baby... but it is. I get in a runt with myself because I find it hard to do things and to go out shopping etc so we stuck in pretty much most days. Same with having a shower... cant reach my legs and feet and have to get Lee to help me and I feel bad coz he works and he works damm hard then has to come home and put up with me and helping me shower. Its just little things like that. So who knows.

[Charlie_x]

i get what your saying it was stuff like that that was getting to me, i know it sounds silly but now again i think a good bath could help just silly things like that i dont know if i had it but i know i was very depressed and felt really low in myself and hated everything but its all good now

[CoNFuSeD24]

As long as your feeling ok about it now thats the main thing. Its hard not to let things get to ya tho. People always say to me stop stressing and blah blah... its like helllllllo I cant help it. Its all the changes in our bodies as well that we arent used to.

[Charlie_x]

i think that was probly the biggest one all the changes lol

[CoNFuSeD24]

There are loads more changes to come. lol

[Charlie_x]

oh im really looking forward to the next ones this my life at the moment and this will be my life after next month

At the monent:

1 bed flat, 16 floor, fire alarms constantly going off, 4 kitties (will not be getting rid of them there my babys!), smelly corridoors etc just a shower no window in the bath, the tinest kitchen in the world, a broken washing machine, on the bright side all we paid out each month was £300 rent and Virgin Media

After next month

3 bedroom house which is just massive, lol i feel like its 2 big, a bath! a real bath tub and its bran new so none of the annamul has come off, a big kitchen that i can cook in properly, a washing machine that works, a garden so when it is a nice day i can sit in the garden, and when it snows i can play in the garden lmao, okay our rent will be £550 but its so worth it.

Lol you see what im getting at! i will take pictures of the flat before i go and then of the house when were settled in and i will post them and you can see what a differnce it will make, the only thing i dont like is that stevenage is a small place so everything is compact and birmingham is massive and spread and its just sooo busy lol

[CoNFuSeD24]

Well thats really good that you have found a bigger place to live in for your growing family. hehe
I can see how 1 bedroom to 3 is going to make a huge difference. Will be lovely to see the pictures when ya get a chance.
We have a 2 bedroom house with huge bathroom, frontroom, backroom and huge kitcken as well for £440 a month. I would love to move as Lee's family live nextdoor and its becoming a bit of a problem for the both of us but at the moment the timing isnt very good with baby nearly due. Maybe at the start of next year move etc. We have wanted to move for awhile now.

[Charlie_x]

i get what your saying were a bit better as rons parents are like 20/30mins away and it would really do my head in if they lived next door always coming round etc ive told ron tho that i dont want no visters untill im ready so his parents will have to wait, hes brother is commin to stay tho on the 26th i believe as its rons 21st on the 25th so that i dont mind but other then that i just want to be left alone to get on with it lol

dont get me wrong hes parents are ok and i love his mum but his dad is another story i hate the way his dad always puts ron down and is a bastard to him and in front of me thats his only down fall i guess and i always go home pissed off lol at least i wont have to put up with my own mum i made sure of that by moving to the other side of the country lmao!! ive always been a daddys girl lmao


P.s forgot to say my due date is the 18th of sept its gone from the 9th to the 15th, so when rons brother is staying with us baby will be like 3/4 days old and will i really want to go out and drink? lol

[emmal20]

well hun its nice u want to be there for every1 but i hope u dont sufer any more tell ur doc i had the same thing and gosh it horrible gud luck with movin