Hi all. I have looked at some of the stories on here, and feel for those who have been in abusive relationships etc.
My dad was an alcoholic, he was always drinking from getting up to going to sleep.If we went anywhere with him, it had to be the pub, or he had his bottle of cider. There was violence witnessed by me, when was a kid, and have grown up with it all my life. I used to hide under blankets wile listening to the house downstairs being trashed, and windows put thru. My mum later had an affair, as did my dad on loads of occassions, and my mum moved this other bloke in. My step-dad he became. Only he too was an alcoholic! He drank sherry tho, and was a stay in doors drinker. Was very strict and we didnt dare do owt. Couldnt come downstairs like other kids did,until it was 9am.Again we saw the rows and fights.Both have now passed away due to drink. My dad was only 48. I felt so angry at him tho. he was a very selfish person in my eyes, who put himself b4 his family. Even tho love him still. My mum ent onto to a drug user then,who is a total nutter, so our contact is an hour a week now, and she doesnt do anything with my girls.I met a guy when i was 18, thote he was gr8, till i found out he used drugs behind my back, i never knew. was naieve i guess at the time, Id never seen a gd relationship, and i was entering the worst ten years of my life. He was so controlling, very selfish, and i, like all the others, waited for him to change. As we no, they dont. He bullied me in lots of ways, but i never got beat up. He'd keep me from sleeping, because he'd be up on drugs all night. He deprived me of sleep, took my money,controled me, turned people against me,and id have to preten to be asleep, becaue i didnt want him to touc me. i got to stage where i found it hard to even walk down street to shop. Had no confdence and was a walking wreck. Me and the kids sufered much more from him, too much to write here, anyway, we finally got help from my kids school to get away from him, but i have since been fighting against him for ova two years now, as he doesnt leave us alone. Im on the 2nd non molestation order, he sent threats to house, we had to have fire alrms fitted etc, and we cant even go into town without him screaming abuse at us. He had hold of me a month ago in town, and police had to be called. He is now jealous of my new relationship and me expecting to sum else.This has been hard for me and the girls,but i will never give in again to him, choose how many more years i have trouble from him. He doesnt see the children, as he still uses drugs, has mental health probs,and cant cope with the kids, he never could,i have always cared for them and provided for them.He just got his belt off and frightned life out of every1.Anyway, we have moved on, in the best way we can, and altho he gets me down, constantly harrassing us, i shall continue to keep strong and fight everything he throws at us. He has to give up eventually, surely?!! I have met a nice guy now, he's gr8 with the kids, and gd to me. He dont smoke,drink,or do drugs, like i never have, and im just hoping this relationship will last. Its happiest ive ever been in my life. So much so, i now doubt if it real, or not
Its cos im so not used to having some1 treat me nice. Any way, i think ive gon on long enough, and im trying to hold back the tears here, so i'll shut up
. Well thats sum of my story. :smile: xx
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