Not Again :(

[Mumi.Of.2]

I got with my ex from 4 years ago coz I still loved him, he said he still loved me etc he moved up here to be closer to me and got a job and everything. Asked me to marry him, I found out we're having a baby.

Yesterday I went to Hull to see my daughter, had a crappy day coz my ex started on me as usual. Come home just wanting a hug. Didn't get back til 11:15. I started panicing because I remembered he hadn't got a key to get back in and it was pouring with rain. Got home and he wasn't there I thought he was running late. So got in and called him to make sure he was alright, he said he was at the pub then I remembered it was his bosses bday so they all stayed back for drinks after work. I asked him when he'd be back and he said he was staying out for the night I asked why and he said because he needed some time his head is messed up and just needs a few days to clear it up. I put the phone down on him, then called him back and he said that he just needed some time. but then his phone went dead.

I called him this morning to speak to him, and I asked what I'd done.. I got the line 'It's not you it's me' He couldn't tell me if he loves me, if he wants to be with me or anything. I've told him I'm thinking about getting an abortion because I can't bring another baby in to this world out of a relationship. I've already got 2 kids by 2 dads and I'm only 21 with another on the way by somebody else, all he could say was alright.

I'm just so confused. I don't know what to do. He done this to me last time except he went back to London but he's saying he aint going back this time.

I don't get how men do this........ they tell you they love you then as soon as their head is a bit messed up they can't tell you if they love you or anything. My ex used to do it and it proper messed me up.

I don't know what to do

[Charlie_x]

oh hun im sorry to hear that i hope you get things sorted soon xx

[CoNFuSeD24]

Awww hun I'm sorry to hear things arent going to well at the moment. Hopefuly over time things will get sorted. *huggs*

[HSlater]

oh hunnie hope he sorts his head out hun x

[Leahsophiesmum]

oh hunnie,u shouldnt have to go through this..im so sorry this has happened..i really hope u get things sorted hun for u and ur baby x x x

[Mumi.Of.2]

I'm waiting to hear off him to see if he's coming back tonight.. doubt he will. Driving me bloody insane just wana speak to him about it. I'm the type of person who wants to talk it through when it's the problem, not let it settle, think about it too much then talk coz gets too heated and thoughts aren't a good thing! x

[Leahsophiesmum]

he shouldnt leave u waitin around like this hun..u must feel awful..hope things get better soon x

[Mumi.Of.2]

Oh well single again. Called him this morning, he told me that he doesn't want to be in a realationship so has told me that he can't be with me, I asked him if he loved me he said not as he should and he only loves me as a friend. Typical. I knew this was guna happen More fool me for falling for his fake charm

[claribel]

awwwww thats crap, what a tit. but dont feel like the loser in all this cos ur not, hes just obviously not good enough for u. so what're u gonna do now?

[Mumi.Of.2]

Get on with my life enit And just concentrate on me my girlies and my unborn baby. Get myself a friend with extras and I'll be sorted lmao.

Makes me feel like a bad mum, keep hurting my Summer like this but it aint me I know that but still, makes me wonder what's wrong with me.

Just can't believe I let him do this to me once before then let me do it again, what a fool. Stupid gullable idiot x