violence of the past?

laura678 · #1 06-01-2007, 11:38 PM

hi,ive read some of the other members experiences and like 2 share mine,i grew up wiv very violent sick alcoholic parents,my father even beat me as a 1 yr old baby (mum told me while she laughed),beat me black and blue for peeing on the carpet.i had 2 older sisters they got beat as well,we all got split up and put in kids homes,and ive never seen the eldest since thats like 17 yrs.but time past and it was pretty crap growing up in care,and i was 13 when i met this guy,he was 21.i thought he was great,he was doing drugs tho.he started beating me but by that time i was already pregnant at 14,he used to stamp on my tummy and id be in hospital for days,he broke my ribs fractured both wrists broke 3 fingers,strangled me and beat me wiv metal bar,tried to cut my throat,blacked my eyes and always boasted,this was on a daily basis for 4 years,id had my baby a little girl,i was kicked out of care at 15 went to live wiv him and my little girl,he got so violent i was actually on a life support,we managed to get away but was homeless and stuck,no family no nothing,my little girl was taken off me by my OWN VIOLENT MOTHER the court allowed this to happen.my babys father commited suicide,felt kind of releived and saddened but never got chance 2 make peace.years on i am 31 and have settled and happy-ish wiv my partner and 4 more children,sadly,very sadly i have never regained contact wiv my sister who i beleive has a 7 yr old daughter,i saw my father for the first time in many years i wanted to see if he was still the same,i knew he wouldnt hurtme,just a sad lonely old man.i know people will be thinking why didnt i get out of the relationship,but i was so young and there was not as much help as there is these days.but most of all i missed out on my beautiful baby girl growing up into a lovely young woman she is 16 this yr and ive tried several times to regain something,mum always denies,i have so much hate for my mother its so sad she hates me so much even tho courts allow access shes denied it.

clare bear · #2 06-02-2007, 09:28 AM

sorry to hear that chic, at least you have got over it and are now happy. when your young its so easy to get involved in something like that, who didint want an older boyfriend ? anyway as for your mum well you want to forget her get on with your life and just show her wt a good mum you are. at least your not like she was. chin up chic. lol

kazisindahouse · #3 06-02-2007, 10:57 AM

Do you know Laura you are one hell of a courageous person to have hung on in there. Its obvious you survived it all to show people what a great mother you can be.
My ex wasnt violent as such, he was minipulative and would twist things so that he had me thinking, did I do that, say that. It can be tough I know but it seems like you've turned a corner, so well done!

laura678 · #4 06-02-2007, 12:08 PM

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Originally Posted by kazisindahouse

Do you know Laura you are one hell of a courageous person to have hung on in there. Its obvious you survived it all to show people what a great mother you can be.
My ex wasnt violent as such, he was minipulative and would twist things so that he had me thinking, did I do that, say that. It can be tough I know but it seems like you've turned a corner, so well done!

thanks,its been a very long painful process,but im almost there.my kids are my world!just a shame it couldnt be like that wiv the eldest

kazisindahouse · #5 06-02-2007, 12:30 PM

You never know ... one day

c.a.cullum · #6 06-02-2007, 04:33 PM

bloody hell!!! wot an awful thing to have to go thru!! i'd just like to say... ur an inspiration.. it seems that u have not let wot these awful people have done to u affect ur future!! stay positive as im sure ur life is all u wanted and ur daughter im sure wil understand wen u get th chance to explain all to her!!

ur mother obviously has jealousy issues towards u and thats why shes being so terrible!! stay strong!! ur worth a million of her and as for ur sister i hope u find her one day and regain contact!!

laura678 · #7 06-02-2007, 09:40 PM

hi thanks for the message,its good to know there are sum good people out there.the ironic thing is i tried to stay positive 4 so long,but nearly 3 years ago when i was pregnant wiv my youngest daughter,i became really ill and have been diagnosed wiv eye disease,and could spend my later life wiv little or no vision at all.inherited from my mother of all people,i guess im just not lucky in life?!

zoelou88 · #8 06-09-2007, 11:55 AM

im feel so sorry for you it must have been so hard growing up i can not begin to imagine what you must have been going throught. i really hope you get access to your daughter again.
i am glad you have managed to move on with your life and not let the past get the better of you.

laura678 · #9 06-11-2007, 09:22 PM

hi,yeah it was really hard growin up wiv my parents and in care,u end up abit
messed up,and scared of your own shadow!i have managed 2 gain
alittle contactwiv my daughter,we send eachother secret emails,shes being doing
her final exams and has left school,all those years weve missed
2gether because of my vindictive mother,weve made plans when she
turns 16 we ll be reunited,if its done b4 my mother will get me arressted
for taking her without her consent,how could a person do this to there own flesh and blood,but just a few more months and then we can meet eachother and she can meet her 3 sisters and brother for the first time.