My baby is now 18weeks old and I think I have been depressed since he was born. I have no support network, my family are busy leading their own lives and my partner whom I have tried to tell how I feel has been extremely unsupportive. In fact I was devastated last week when he made a joke about my mental state when we were with some neighbours. I havent seen the doctor yet as I feel pathetic about it all and why cant I sort it out myself? I love my baby without a doubt but I am plagued by this despair and loneliness and I dont really know what to do.