i had a few problems with feeding. she was latching on but nothing was coming out and my poor baby was starving so in the end i had to give her formula. but i just didn\\\\\\\'t have it. i never leaked they didn\\\\\\\'t grow or shrink so i couldn\\\\\\\'t have.

things got better i grew to realise i loved my baby. she was so good slept through the night from six weeks was happy and contented.

john moved in with us and my parents. we had a fantastic christmas and things were looking up. i had just started back at work and then all hell broke loose. on the friday we g=had our 15 year old dog put to sleep which was awfull and then on the saturday my parents found out about john! they threw him out mum took jessica away from me! and my whole world fell apart. withen time it calmed down me and john didn\\\\\\\'t see each other for a couple of weeks when he sent me a cheque for jessica, which my mum appriciated and said that he ought to see her if he was sending her money. at the end of febuary all was forgiven and john flew to spain for eight weeks for the second time round.

when he came back he was a new person. i had found us a lovely rented two bed house and things were great and we were happy for a 7 months when john started feeling down his work were hassling him all the time and he was scared of going back this was the longest he had been clean for in 7 years. so we packed our stuff. gave our notice to the landlords. and flew to spain to live with john\\\\\\\'s mum. that was seven months ago.